Thursday, May 26, 2011

Gems of Truth

On a weekly basis I have the joy to see around 30 kids...which is a great blessing. I love them all and am slightly sad that my season with a couple of them is slowly winding down. They teach me about life through their young eyes...and a lot about God.

There is a little blonde girl who shows me what it is to look and marvel at God's creation. Just to give you some idea she was sad on the first day of fall when the leaves were not instantly colorful, she sings songs about the rain and the sun and the apple trees, she tries to name all the bird that come to their birds feeder (in fact because of her I know what a Goldfinch is), and she rejoices at the May snow flurry that made me cringe.

There are two blonde twins and their brother that show me how to pray to a God that CAN do anything. They pray consistently for something that my sinful heart says God won't/can't answer. It's that heart that they show me I need to repent of; the heart that judges prayer on the basis of whether I think God can/will answer and then proceeds (or doesn't).

There is a skinny spunky blonde girl who shows me what is it to believe that Jesus is a friend. Most recently it was in her telling me about how she is never lonely, as Jesus is always with her and always will be. Also she corrects my jokes about how today is the best day ever but simply telling me that the best day ever will be when she's with Jesus.

There is a four year old academic that has been hear saying "no sinful nature, momma told me I have to take a nap." This little boy fights his sin better than my heart does most days. He also at his young age struggles to understand things that adults might not even think twice about (The trinity, original sin etc). This is a good reminder to me that struggling to understand/thinking through theology is a great thing.

There is a young Paleontologist/Zoologist that isn't old enough to read yet, but can name facts and correct my pronunciation at any and all animals (and for some reason he always asks me to read the books that include the scientific names too!) His heart shows me what it is to stand in awe of the creation of my God, the present and the extinct.

There is a five year old world traveler, who has stepped on more foreign soil in his young life they I probably ever will. He is fluent in two languages, as are his parents. He shows me that no matter what language the Gospel is spoken in the truth remains. No truer words about Jesus can ever be spoken, no matter what language he speaks it in.

There is a boy named G2 who is possibly borderline obsessed with the fact that we as sinners don't deserve anything, but the curse of God. At his young age he is starting to understand the grace and mercy God shows us, undeserving sinners. The depth of that grace and mercy is something he and I and all the saints will continue to see clearer until the day of Christ.

It's these reminders and many more the Lord blesses me with on a near daily basis.

Friday, May 20, 2011

and once again

I pretty much feel like I never get what I want and although right now that's making me a little bit more than a little sad, the better news is I don't get what I deserve.

I am a sinner who deserves hell for my sin. End of story. But not so fast, I am a redeemed sinner who's sin was paid in full at the cross of Christ. I don't bear the load I cannot bear, for Christ has already. Not only do I not get what I deserve, I get what I do not deserve...heaven. Praise the Lord.

So once again I get the reminder that the Gospel is good news and my hope is not in this world...here's hoping that the next time this great reminder comes I don't end up crying...although maybe it's not a completely bad price to pay.









Oh Father, use my ransomed life
In any way You choose.
And let my song forever be
My only boast is You.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Gone

There is a house right across the street from where my street dead ends...or there was a house. It got taken down yesterday, this got me thinking about what it look like. The only thing I could come up with is that it was white...I think. This has made me think a couple of things.


One) How things built by man, for the purpose of man, never last.

Two) How could something that I have looked at say more than 5,000 times be so easily forgotten. This has made me think about how the things I become familiar with can seem common and forgettable. I pray that this is not how I view the Gospel of Christ. Not through eyes of familiarity, but through eyes of constant awe. Through eyes that say who am I, Stephanie Hays, that Christ took my blame and born the wrath of God (wrath that was rightly placed on me for my sin).


By the way I really do think it was white.

Monday, May 2, 2011

An open letter to Sparty

Dear Sparty,

I think you know I like you a lot. I mean really what other middle schooler made a picture of you out of streamers (streamers are not easy to work with) and who can forget that rainy fall night I stood on my bleacher, till the clock read 0:00, just to watch our boys lose, or the time you sneaked up (stood) behind me at that volleyball game or the many pictures I have taken with you and your statues throughout the years.

So now the confession...I am working for this family and I like them a lot, five little blonde girls all running around. There is only one problem and that is HE (the father, the one we shall not name) graduated from (gulp) Michigan and (gulp) has the wardrobe to prove it. This may seem like nothing Sparty, but...I have folded some of their laundry...meaning...yes I have folded shirts and sweatshirts of maize and blue. Oh the shame. Every time I think of you and your dedication to the cause seen here in this video and somehow I know I have failed you. Please forgive me and know my love for you.


Your always fan,
Steph




PS I hope to some day gather the courage to throw down the shirts and run.