My Help comes from the Lord

I have been kind of discouraged lately.

On Thursday I was working at a house with many children. I was cleaning and as I sometimes do with every mop stroke and surfaced wipe I was over thinking pretty much everything (read-I was feeling reeeeaaallllyyy discouraged). In fact while mopping I was pretty much begging God to send me some encouragement. Not ten minutes later did a four you old boy walk into the room. He has been known to say such things as "you're disgusting" to his favorite neighbors and "you're a stinkpot" to pretty much everyone else (note-his parents are working on this). He walked in the room and said "You're the best". To which of course I picked him up and cried. He noticed and said that my eyes were red and asked if I had burned them....I laughed.

The Lord did in fact answer my prayer for encouragement, using one of the most unlikely sources, as if to say, this is from me. Does this solve all my problems...nope, but it is a great reminder that my Help comes from the Lord.

A look back

Last Wednesday was the very last time I watched these four kids from two different families together. Two of these wonderful kids are moving to Kansas...they will be missed by me. Looking back I must have been a little crazy to say yes to watching 2 two year olds, an almost one year old and a 2 month old, but for what it's worth I would say yes again in a heart beat! They have brought me lots of joy!

All my trust on thee is stayed

So I guess the problem with having the mindset of "These are good days" is things change. I do well with a lot of things, like a double digit amount of kiddos at one time, to do list that could never all be done, mainly I do crazy well. I do not do well with change. And in a time in my life that I am getting ready for a big, but good change (marriage) it seems like in the Lord's good and perfect timing everything around me is changing too.

I mean three of the families I am watching are either getting ready to or just had a baby, three families are moving (one to Kansas :( and the other two locally), two families have kids starting preschool (therefore I won't see the kids as much as I would like), multiple of my good friends have moved a way and now it looks like my brother may join in the changes and move to Colorado :(

Half of me wants to freeze time and stay awhile (or at least throw my hands up and say "really", the other half is just a little sad. I suppose that the good reminder in it all is that my hope is not in these days, but in the Maker of day, the giver of my days. My end is to glorify him. As things change all around me my cornerstone remains steadfast.

Other refuge have I none,
hangs my helpless soul on thee;
leave, ah! leave me not alone,
still support and comfort me.
All my trust on thee is stayed,
all my help from thee I bring;
cover my defenseless head
with the shadow of thy wing.

Thou, O Christ, art all I want,
more than all in thee I find;
raise the fallen, cheer the faint,
heal the sick, and lead the blind.
Just and holy is thy name,
I am all unrighteousness;
false and full of sin I am;

thou art full of truth and grace.

-Wesley