And everything is speaking for allegiance

Yesterday I may or I may not have freaked out (may is true) and when it all comes down to it I was second-guessing what the Lord has and will provide in my life (note to self-don't do this). I was thinking that I knew what I needed and did not know how to reconcile the fact that I probably won't get what I want. At the time I was kind of jealous and mildly angry (read-sinful) and I knew it. I also don't know how to be sad about something (it makes sense I would be sad) without becoming jealous or angry. I also knew that I have a lot to be thankful for (note-I feel kind of cheesy that this post will be around thanksgiving, but I decided it is still good for me to continue in the hopes the joy and thankfulness can't live in the same heart as anger and jealousy).

Where to start...where to start...how about the fact that my biggest problem now and always is solved. Sin. I would stand before the Lord fully deserving Hell for my sin, nothing I can do could ever change that end. But it is solved, it is paid for in the blood of Jesus Christ...as Romans 8:1 says it Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. This is something I will/can never be thankful enough for.

Here are some other things in no particular order.

• I am thankful for a fiance who will listen to me even when I know I don't make sense
• I am thankful for URC that feeds me sermons of substance
• I am thankful for the body of saints that I stand by, pray for and who pray for me
• I am thankful for a brother who calls me at midnight telling me he has sent me links to some great Piper videos and I need to watch them
• I am thankful for hymns, reformed rap, acoustic sounding stuff, sappy country love songs (I know, I know...)
• I am thankful for parents who love me and pretty much "adopt" all my friends
• I am thankful for a best friend who still laughs when I am ridiculous
• I am thankful for my Rendezvous...I love it
• I am thankful for coffee, tea, diet coke and Perrier
• I am thankful for the kiddos that I spent my weekdays (and sometime nights) with and their parents who demonstrate biblical parenting
• I am thankful for scarves
• I am thankful for Pine Dive Gospel Church and their pastor Okey for showing me what a small, but faithful church looks like
• I am thankful for sweaters
• I am thankful for my friends who work for the growth of the Gospel at MSU, in Lansing, in Michigan, in the US, in the world
• I am thankful for a small group where a group of different people come together to know and make known our Savior
• I am thankful for the family at 541 Meadowlawn- their care, their hospitality, their example, their patience (in fact when I did freak out I ran over to that house)
• I am thankful for the friend I met in Philips Hall, who has been a great brother to talk to over the past five and a half years
• I am thankful for scented candles
• I am thankful for my puppy of 13 years
• I am thankful for an extended family who has always loved and been interested in my brother and I (we are the only ones in our age group)
• I am thankful for lakes and boats
• I am thankful for education
• I am thankful for people who let me sleep at their house and talk with me, watch NCIS, and play bananagrams till 2am
• I am thankful for games
• I am thankful for MACC Ave Church and their faithfulness to the Gospel in Detroit
• I am thankful for the color green
• I am thankful for ice cream night, which as far as I am concern does not need to include ice cream, just the people
• I am thankful for books
• I am thankful for friends who still go to MSU
• I am thankful for Netflix
• I am thankful for friends in North Carolina and South Korea and from Cali
• I am thankful for the saints of old who still line the way, retelling triumphs of his Grace
• I am thankful for MSU football
• I am thankful for asparagus, string cheese and garlic
• I am thankful