Life

       In what areas has God been working on your character?

"Not sure how to answer this, but I’m a verbal processor...so here we go.  I am a person who feels pretty self-sufficient, likes to be doing things, and loves to pleaser people (in general). I have been learning as of late (actually slowly over the course of a long time, but also for sure lately) that I have limits, I am finite, and I am a human. I cannot be everything, to everyone, do everything everywhere, and sleep. As I have told you multiple times (I think), this summer I said yes to too many things, good things, things I wanted to do and somehow forgot that the fall is really busy around church. I have felt like I was at my end a lot, but truth be told if I don’t feel like I am at my end I (foolishly, usually) rest on my self-sufficiency, not on the one who create everything with his words and holds all things together (and the one who forgave my sins, by his mercy). I enjoy (at least a little) feeling my mortal weakness in small ways. It is good for me to own that identity and rest in what the Lord has done, not what I can do! I’m not sure if this is what the question wanted, but I’m sure it affects my character."


...Oh boy, that was an answer to a self evaluation I filled out for my church job in September. And truth be told...its exactly (again) where I find myself in March. (As a side note-I am sure my lovely husband wishes and prays I someday feel my mortal weakness in a different way and not one where I have to be at my end...but he is a good man and has never said such things. I love him.) I do feel the comfort of knowing in my exhaustion, and utter non-sufficiency the Lord is Good, the Lord is Almighty, and the Lord is Able. I love knowing the Lord better today, than yesterday. And in this meager realization, I find hope for tomorrow's insurmountable tasks.